Dedicated to a dear friend ….. you are loved

Josh Groban – Don’t give up ( you are loved )

Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world
When your heart’s heavy, I
I will lift it for you
Don’t give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you, I
I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can’t hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved

Don’t give up
It’s just the hurt
That you hide
When you’re lost inside, I
I’ll be there to find you

Don’t give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you I
I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can’t hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved

You are loved

Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world

Don’t give up
Everyone needs to be loved

You are loved

I have just completed my theory papers today … tomorrow I will be having my vivas on Wed and Thurs. And I will free as a bird by Thursday afternoon … yippeee….. after the theory exams … a few of us met up and go our brains fried by practising viva with one another till evening and we had dinner together…. there is so much I dont know … or rather what I know is ALL jumbled up there in my brain now …. hopefully tomorrow it will all be systemically arranged waiting to be poured out in front of the examiner but whatever the outcome …. I am much happier and the peace of God guards my heart and mind.

But what have been bugging me was a dear friend who is also sitting for exams with me ….. both of us had failed before and we are now going for the 3rd attempt. It is not easy to maintain the same intensity when we are reading the same stuffs over and over again and yet still dont remember much of it ….. duh ….anyway I thank God that this experience had made me stronger and He had made me face things about myself which I normally would have just swept under the rug ….. and that experience is worth it and priceless ….

Well back to my friend. She asked me “Will you still love me if I dont make it as specialist? Will you still be my friend? People will look at me different if I dont make it? I am such a failure…. I am hopeless” It just cuts my heart to see my friend like that because that was exactly what I went through and by His grace …. He had showed me that all that matters is what God thinks of me. It really hurt me to see my friend like that …. she is actually a bubbly person …. funny…gorgeous ( she thinks she is the ugly ducking)….. and a sincere friend. I am surprised that sometimes that this masters program could do this to her ….. made her doubt herself. Look down on herself…… and I told her that just because you dont make it as a specialist, it does not mean that you are a failure. You are already a doctor. Maybe this is just not meant for you. And if you have friends who ignore you just because you did not make it as a specialist …then they are not true friends at all …….I can see all that I am trying to tell her is falling on deaf ears because she was too caught up in her plight …. not seeing a way out … only a dead end.

And to my friend…. my love, support and prayers goes out to you. And I will stand by your side, come what may because you are loved for who you are … not what you are. And I pray that someday you will be able to see that you are precious and a gem of a person and dont let anyone or anything ever make you feel like a failure or worthless. Because you are loved.

And today I say a prayer for you …… and I dedicate this song to you …… you are loved …

~ by sbanboy on November 14, 2006.